Well, hello again….
It has been ages since I’ve written here…
Around a week ago, I realized I’m in another cross-road of my life. But for this cross-road, I don’t know what exactly is the next step for me to progress in my life. Despite of the uncertainty that I’m currently facing, I’m grateful for a few things…
I’m grateful that Allah SWT still gives enlightenment in my life whenever I’m facing a brick wall. For this moment, the exit sign needs more effort to find, but at least I’m still enlighten by the situation. Alhamdulillah for that.
I’m grateful that I have the sweetest kids ever. At the time that I don’t feel belonging anywhere, they show me that they really need me. You may be saying, “Yeah, of course, they’re your kids and their in their kiddy years”. That may be true, but the gestures that they give to me recently, was not the usual gesture that show their affection towards me. They gave me something special. Anindya out of the blue made me a very sweet card just saying “I LOVE YOU, MOM”. No matter how simple it is, I know it’s genuinely from her heart and I love and thank her for that. Ammar, in the middle of the night was longing to always be hugged by me, even when I needed to go for a pee, he followed me, held my hand up to the bed and hugged me some more. Those simple gesture really made my week.
I’m grateful that I stumbled into another John Maxwell’s book about “Putting Your Dream to the Test”. It’s an eye opener and gives practical guidelines. Unfortunately, after reading the book and realizing that I am waaaaayyyy behind my life purpose, I’m doubting myself right now and need to get my energy up. But I will wake up soon and do what is needed to live my life purpose. I need to! And I’m grateful I’m fighting my lazy side to still have a positive attitude towards this.
One more thing, I’m grateful that I had the time to visit my parents’ house, after not going there for quite some time (I still meet them often enough, but not at their house). And I feel that joy in their hearts that I came with my kids. I’m grateful I still have them in my life and hopefully they’re proud of me :*)
Not so bad for my gratitude list after 2 months entering this new year…. Alhamdulillah, ya Allah….